December 27, 2012
It is now 94 days till Easter. My task today is to go out
hunting habits. To get rid of the old habits that feed my desire to eat what I
want, whenever I want, as much as I want. Habits such as eating by the clock,
eating because I happened to be in the kitchen, eating because I’m upset,
eating because everyone else is eating and eating beyond full just because I
can. Other things that need to be hunted down and gotten rid of are the habits
of eating too fast and eating while cooking as well.
The hard part about dealing with habits is the fact that
they happen so automatically that you commit the bad habit before you even
realize it. Suddenly tonight as I was cooking dinner I found myself snitching
yet another bite of food from the pot. There was no pre-meditated decision only
an old habit that took control once again.
Truth be known over the years of trying to “diet” the one
thing that crashed most of my diets were the habits I couldn’t seem to break. Nice
try, Karen, but no cigars or candy! As much as I would like to blame all those
bad habits the true culprit was me. It was me that allowed something to control
my behavior, it was me who easily gave in to temptation, it was me who chose
food over God when I knew the consequences. It was me not McDonald’s, Dairy
Queen, Papa Murphy’s pizza, Dunkin donuts or anything else to blame for my
obesity.
So although indeed the bad habits have to go I’m the one
responsible to make sure that happens. They are not going away on their own,
and they are more than happy to stay as long as I welcome them into my life.